Sunset πŸ”° keep3rdapril


How many sunsets can you watch and not feel sad? Or grateful, or happy, or blessed, or alone? Sunset gives us different moods. It really depends on whos watching it. But im sure of one thing, everytime i watch the sun set i theres always a little of me that feels very thankful. For the world, for my family, for my life. 

It is so beautiful i will never get used of how great it is. 

But at the end of the day i always feel alone. Like there is something missing. I dont know what it was. Until ive had Ann and Astrid. They gave meaning to my life. Whenever they are away i feel worthless. Like i am living for nothing. Thats how they make me feel. They make me feel alive. They make me feel that i have a purpose. That i am important. Without any effort they gave me something to live for.

Sunset πŸ”° keep3rdapril


How many sunsets can you watch and not feel sad? Or grateful, or happy, or blessed, or alone? Sunset gives us different moods. It really depends on whos watching it. But im sure of one thing, everytime i watch the sun set i theres always a little of me that feels very thankful. For the world, for my family, for my life.

It is so beautiful i will never get used of how great it is.

But at the end of the day i always feel alone. Like there is something missing. I dont know what it was. Until ive had Ann and Astrid. They gave meaning to my life. Whenever they are away i feel worthless. Like i am living for nothing. Thats how they make me feel. They make me feel alive. They make me feel that i have a purpose. That i am important. Without any effort they gave me something to live for.

It is really hard to be a parent. You have to be a role model. The things that you do before may not be a good thing for your children so you have to stop doing some of em. You have to be perfect. Or at least try.

I just found out today a lot of things about how my dad and mom felt about some things i did before. Like the girls i dated, friends i had and stupid things i did. They hated most of my exs, they hated most of my friends because they are bad for me but of course they love some of em. 

What really hit me is finding out my dad cried when he found out i joined a fraternity. I was young, i thought i was just living my own life, i didnt know i have people that gets hurt whenever i get hurt or in a bad position.

I am now aware of course about the chain reaction that will occur whenever i do something good or stupid. I know that everyone i love will be affected. Sometimes you just learn things the hard way. And for me that is better. Because you get scars from it and as we know scars are there forever unless you go to Belo. Which is im too cheap for. 

It really nice to know about things like these from my parents. I feel valued. Loved.

It is really hard to be a parent. You have to be a role model. The things that you do before may not be a good thing for your children so you have to stop doing some of em. You have to be perfect. Or at least try.

I just found out today a lot of things about how my dad and mom felt about some things i did before. Like the girls i dated, friends i had and stupid things i did. They hated most of my exs, they hated most of my friends because they are bad for me but of course they love some of em.

What really hit me is finding out my dad cried when he found out i joined a fraternity. I was young, i thought i was just living my own life, i didnt know i have people that gets hurt whenever i get hurt or in a bad position.

I am now aware of course about the chain reaction that will occur whenever i do something good or stupid. I know that everyone i love will be affected. Sometimes you just learn things the hard way. And for me that is better. Because you get scars from it and as we know scars are there forever unless you go to Belo. Which is im too cheap for.

It really nice to know about things like these from my parents. I feel valued. Loved.

Automatic Robot πŸ”° keep12thfeb

I’ve been working for quiet a while now. Immune to sickness, sleepiness and curses from my customers. The work is not really hard however it already feels like I’ m a robot that needs to do its job no matter how rusty I am or even if I malfunction because I’m out of battery charge.

It’s really funny because when you are a teenager you don’t have to do anything to survive. You just have to deal with the everyday bullshit your teacher is telling you to do. But when grow old you have to do what’s best for your family. Yoy can’t even be absent at work even if you feel like crap because you can’t afford to lose the attendance bonus.

Life was so much easier, but being a father is actually much more fulfilling. My life matters so much now. Because i need to provide for my family. And make sure that they have the best in their lives.